___liesandsins

Sunday, April 29, 2007

I look to the mirror and see someone staring back at me. who was that someone?

hey ppl.

sometimes, when i look at myself in the mirror and see my own reflection, i find myself staring at someone i have yet to know. the irony.

and how i really just hate the guy i see looking back at me sometimes.

yes i've been in denial but really, it makes me sick to be who i am and even more sick when i realise that i do not understand myself sometimes.

have you guys experienced it before? you look at yourself in the mirror yet wonder who you are? who or what that's looking back at you? what is it that's been doing all that talking, that laughing, that crying? what is it that's been causing you to act in a certain way or feel a certain way? what is it that laughs in front of others so that you can hide your true self, your pain, your sufferings but cries deep down inside? and isn't it ironic that every time you think you know who you are, you don't, cos beneath all that, the outer fraction of yourself, is the fragile side of you holding on to life ever so dearly.

who are you idham?

I'm so sick of him. of ME. of this.

LiesandSins__
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