___liesandsins

Sunday, April 29, 2007

I look to the mirror and see someone staring back at me. who was that someone?

hey ppl.

sometimes, when i look at myself in the mirror and see my own reflection, i find myself staring at someone i have yet to know. the irony.

and how i really just hate the guy i see looking back at me sometimes.

yes i've been in denial but really, it makes me sick to be who i am and even more sick when i realise that i do not understand myself sometimes.

have you guys experienced it before? you look at yourself in the mirror yet wonder who you are? who or what that's looking back at you? what is it that's been doing all that talking, that laughing, that crying? what is it that's been causing you to act in a certain way or feel a certain way? what is it that laughs in front of others so that you can hide your true self, your pain, your sufferings but cries deep down inside? and isn't it ironic that every time you think you know who you are, you don't, cos beneath all that, the outer fraction of yourself, is the fragile side of you holding on to life ever so dearly.

who are you idham?

I'm so sick of him. of ME. of this.

LiesandSins__
12:12 am

Saturday, April 21, 2007

i look like some stupid ass. why? don't ask me. just look at me and laugh. but better not cos i am not gonna be too happy.

i seriously don't get it. i mean like why must JC people have this certain look? have that certain kind of hairstyle? have that certain kind of dressing? why can't we have long hair? does long hair mean u are low on moral values and discipline? i mean like why do they make it a school rule not to have long hair? i seriously don't get it. why is the world so stereotyped? and yes, you guessed it right. WOOO, u can call yourselves smart people now.

for the dumb people, i got caught for my hair and they cut it till i look like an ass.

yesterday was one of the worst moments in my life. why oh why?

LiesandSins__
8:57 am

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

To the dismay of some of you out there, I'm still not dead yet, no not yet, but.. going to be. With that, i mean that i'm struggling in school. In fact i'm struggling with everything.

The smart people around me, the lousy subjects, the tiring P.E., the "very little" amount of homework...the fact that i must stand in MRT when i'm alr so tired sleeping for only three hours last night revising my work. WOW, jc is wonderful. everyone here has a life! tsk, yes i do realise that i'm insulting myself you asshole. hah, just kidding! seriously, i dont know what i'm doing in jc. so ironic of me to think that im going to be able to make it. only term 2 and i'm alr dragging myself on the floor.

yay, life is wonderful!

There you go amanda, my update.

LiesandSins__
10:01 pm