___liesandsins

Monday, March 19, 2007

i just feel that life is so unfair.

anyway readers, before i start, let me warn you, i'm really gonna complain a lot so if you think that you will not be able to bear with the contents, i strongly advise that you leave.

ok, so what is it that is so unfair? well, everything. this whole stupid life of ours.

maybe it's just me, but i always get this vague disaffection, this constant feeling that i'm never too happy with my life. one ought, of course, to be thankful and rest content and hence, some of you might be wondering right now what the hell is wrong with me. well, cant you guys see what's wrong? come on, admit it that you guys sometimes feel that this whole life of ours is just some sort of perpetual cycle with lack of purpose and meaning in it. maybe you may not feel it that strongly but surely you must have felt that tinge of dissatisfaction about your own pathetic lives before. yes, you just saw me using the word pathetic and when i say pathetic, it's not merely to mock at you (well, maybe a little). i think all our lifes are pathetic, even mine. a life where we go about chasing papers, getting a good job, marrying with someone whom you might only know for a short while, setting up a family, having children, sending them to schools, growing old, retiring and then rotting on cpf and then what? waiting to die of course. isnt that pathetic people? what happen to your passion? what happen to love and finding the right one? what happen to spending time with family members?? what happen to just sitting down and looking back at how fortunate you are to be able to experience life in the first place? what happen to helping the less fortunate? life is short people and do you really want to waste your time going about carrying out the perpetual cycle just because everyone else is doing it? well, the answer is yes. the truth is, we have to. i'm not blaming you guys or anything but i just feel that to be trapped in this whole rubbish of life cycle really just pisses me off. i believe that it is unfair for our life to be decided by things like education and to go about chasing papers. that is not why we are down here on Earth. but oh well, since when is life unfair? it is because that it is never fair that we tend to appreciate it more when good things happen once in a while. that is why we have ups and downs in our lifes, however most of it being filled with downs of course.

but then again people, dont mind me. i'm just stressed up. and no i'm not stressed out about just school, i'm stressed out about money. while some of you gluttons get pocket money and are feeding off your parents, me on the other hand, support myself, pay for my own books and uniform. so, besides school, i have money to worry about. and yes, i know i sound rude but just give me some other day to apologise alright. i'm too stressed up. and the thing is, i have warned you regarding this entry. having said that, i'll end my entry here. bye ppl.

i miss playing my guitar. so loud that i couldnt hear myself screaming.
i miss just getting lost with the music i make.

LiesandSins__
9:12 pm